My life at 25 was a complex but fragile house of cards waiting to crumble down the more it grew. I was a believer; however the core beliefs, self-contempt, and self-protection caused by the trauma of my childhood trumped any truth from the God I was desperate for. I was a daily drug user for years. The drugs and the self-protection were my sin of independence in a fallen world that had hurt me, abandoned me, and I perceived had labeled me unworthy and unlovable. The deep pain and darkness was always there and my professional baseball career, endless relationships, and no amount of drugs ever ultimately remedied the raging storm in my soul. The house of cards fell as it was doomed to. I entered the TREK residential program on February 26th 2009, two days before I was supposed to be married. The thief comes to steal, kill, and destroy and my sin of rebellion against God had reaped a harvest of pure destruction for me and all of those around me I loved the most.
Our God never stopped pursuing me. That is something that leaves me speechless every day. His love and desire for us is immeasurable. A year after I left the TREK residential program, I know freedom, peace, redemption, love, and relationships I thought I never would know. God put a call on my life to take His message of freedom from the chains of our choices to act out in response to the sin we all encounter. I use my life now to write, teach, and mentor at the program that helped set me free. That place is TREK. While the enemy uses our sin to steal, kill, and destroy, we have a God who never leaves us and wants us to have life like we’ve never known it. It is the goal of my life to help as many as I can find that God and the life He longs to give the broken.
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